I know, I know, i’m a week late to the party, its the 7th January. But I feel like I may have a good excuse, because we went to New York for new years eve, so i’m only just getting over the jet lag. Hence i’m only just awake enough to type coherently.

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and New Year and sticking to your resolutions??? I don’t usually make new year resolutions, mainly because it would always go along the same lines as ‘eating healthy’ ‘going to the gym’ ‘losing weight’, I stick to them for a few weeks, lose a few pounds, and the next think I know i’m at TGI Fridays eating three courses, and then having to pop the button on the new jeans I bought to celebrate my weight loss, on the way home in the car lol!

So this year I decided if I was going to make a resolution it would need to be something attainable, something I’m doing to better myself, not to better the opinion others have of me.

So, whilst sat in a bar in Chelsea whilst in NY, I was discussing with Martin how I wanted to expand this blog by adding a video element, Martin suggested setting up a YouTube channel. My first thought was that I didn’t think I could do it, Martin asked why, and I felt stupid saying it, but my honest answer was ‘I don’t think I could cope with the comments’. I was bullied as a teenager, by girls I thought were my friends. They posted incredibly hurtful comments on MSN messenger (that’s a blast from the past lol). Since then I’ve struggled trusting people, and always assume everyone I meet dislikes me.

The thought of posting videos online and allowing people to comment, frankly scares the living daylights out of me. But i’m not 15 anymore, i’m 27, and I need to move on, as scary as it will be, I think I need to do it, to prove to myself that I can.

I would love any feedback on any of your resolutions or any video ideas you would like to see.

xxx